THE CURRENCY OF SUFFERING

(Posted at 9:48 am CST 4/17/2026)

It has become the common practice of too many to spend the suffering of others as their own private currency.

For myself, I can, and have, made note (written an entire book - LOST LUGGAGE - in fact) of the many times my suffering paid dividends to someone else, without my consent, and mostly without my knowledge.

For me, the exchange began the day I was born, and continued at an exorbitant pace for the length of my life.

I don't articulate this (at great expense to myself) out of a need to play victim.  Rather, as a statement of fact that can be traced in the very steps I have taken, from the dozen moves my family forced me into before I was even 12 (sometimes at the behest of top government and DOD contractors), to the public pay record for SITE Santa Fe during the time I worked there, as their well-praised yet drastically over-worked and vastly underpaid Accounting & HR Manager.

In fact, there are enough public records to prove the dance has always been stacked against me, and while others were waltzing to the tune of what my suffering bought for them, I was thrown into a mosh pit full of predators eager to eat me up - quite literally at times.  (I have been told TO MY FACE by those who have done the tossing - it was simply because I was born a girl.)

No... the chips, cards, deck, and every other thing, have always been stacked against me - as I was trained - GROOMED - into devaluing myself my entire life.

My suffering belonged to others, just as my silence was a price only I have been forced to pay - with my health, my wealth, and my every day well being - as those who used exploitative control over me continued to postulate their false version of reality, continued to excel.

Not only was my suffering spent as currency so that others could buy a life THEY wanted (despite what I needed) it was also used as a convenient weapon against me - every time I attempted to escape the hell hole my 'station in life' afforded me.

However, it would be wise to note: my suffering is no longer their currency, to do with as they like.  Neither is my silence.

And no matter how many laws Trump changes to triangulate me (and everyone like me) as the villain (once again due to our station in life) - and no matter how many professors refuse to teach me simply because I have been broken...

I will always have power and agency over my own life.

I will always know the truth, speak the truth, and work tirelessly, so that others may enjoy the fruits of their own suffering - instead of having them stolen over and over again.

No... freedom is not having nothing left to lose.

It's knowing your value at all times no matter what anyone else is doing to you.

That is freedom.

If you are using the control of others to placate some need of yours... I send you light and love and pray that some day you will understand the only person being devalued is YOU - the exploiter, as your soul diminishes in light frequency every time you choose the darkness, every time you choose to spend other people's suffering.

If you are one of the people who has spent my suffering as though you had a right...

May your soul evolve past the need to spread  your pain like a disease.

May you one day enjoy the pleasures of seeing other people bloom.

You too can walk in the light,  you just have to stop being afraid of yourself in order to do it.

Namaste,
The Storyteller

*If someone has spent your suffering like cash you may have a case against them.  If they have made it a practice to spend many people's suffering - collectively - you definitely have a class action lawsuit.  The value you place on your life and your suffering is all that matters.  And stepping into your truth is the only way to come fully into the light.  Sometimes that means telling on people you've been conditioned to fear.  Be brave.  Because you are worth the effort.

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