Hel Hath No Fury
“Hel hath no fury. And Heaven is but a temporary cage."
She is primordial
sparklight, spark of night
holy ghost, of oh so much delight
dancing along the crystalline-lines
pulling at the threads
This Weaver of Webs
(made up of a million
from a smorgasbord
of too many unfettered needs)
This singer of songs
This righter of wrongs
down home crawler
that one-in-a-million rake
dancing like a tumble weed
casting her inquisitive seed
as she rolls
This Desert Rose
Igniting life at a single touch
a touch that bares
oh.... so much
For she sings the old songs
once again proving
This emerald of the dawn
night wind walker
Siren to them all
She is the whisper
without a care
She is the reason
brave men once again
For she is a living prayer
a kaleidoscope of hope
Because she reminds us all
life's so much more
than just learning
how to cope
Love = courage in action.
© Raena Exe 2023
*All rights reserved
We can take what has been done to us and let it fuel our rage and our anger.
Or we can take what has been done to us and use it to help educate and nurture the world.
I am not responsible for you, yet I take responsibility for the you I interact with.
For you, I will lay open my wounds so that you can see me heal.
For every injury... a tale.
We can take what has been done to us and use that energy to fuel anger or love.
I choose love.
I choose to use the wounds I've sustained to help others avoid the same pitfalls.
I choose to take the words that hurt and use them to mend.
I choose to take the harm I have suffered... and to expose the rot which caused it.
I choose to use my pain, now, and every day to come, to rise above the pettiness of ego and reputation.
I choose to walk my own path, motivated by love, growth, and truth.
The truth about my life and how I have lived it.
© Raena Exe 2023
*All rights reserved
Unwept, unhonor'd, and unsung.
"The wretch, concentred all in self,
Living, shall forfeit fair renown,
And, doubly dying, shall go down
To the vile dust, from whence he sprung,
Unwept, unhonour’d, and unsung."
Sir Walter Scott
They told us we are less because we do not understand their lies.
They told us we are less because we don't rule nor control.
They told us we are less because they are more.
They are worth more than our mothers who raised children to be good, honorable, and steadfast.
They are worth more than our grandmothers who die in poverty because their legacies are only of love.
They are worth more than the lied to, the manipulated, the confused, the sick, the ailing, the decrepit.
They are worth more than the teachers and care givers.
They are worth more than all of our children who they endlessly coerce into cheering for causes that harm their very souls.
They are worth more because our society has deemed them so.
These few who know not community nor care. These few who take what is not earned as though title still bestows these rights.
These few, who parade their indignation and their apathy and their dislike of all that isn't them, as if they are badges of honor.
And we have held them to no moral standards, because we have decided a fair bit of comfort is worth our dignity.
Because we have decided comfortable lies suit us better than the bold face truth...
If they were heroes, if they were truly on our side, they would have done the right thing.
No more, I say. No more champions who never cheer for others. No more heroes that only know how to take. No more charm and empty promises where hard work and respect are due. No more fake fronts. No more death by attrition.
Today I choose to stand for all people, everywhere. Today I choose to say
We Are All Worth So Much More!
© Raena Exe 2023
*All rights reserved
This isn't a bogus account...
For years people have been pretending to be Travis Fimmel online.
Or his social media 'account manager'.
Several of the accounts are even backed up by friends, coworkers, and co-vactioners of the man.
But I would argue no account has messed with his fans more than the Twitter run @Travis_F_Tweets account - which I personally DM'd with in 2018 and 2019 on a somewhat regular basis.
In fact, this account seems to relish the power it has to lure and drag his faithful and often very damaged followers. (They all think it's really him. For too many reasons to explain here.)
And his friends, coworkers, and employers all seem to revel in its audacity.
@_Travla even followed the account - initially.
@_Travla also promotes Mr. Fimmel's other Twitter handle @TravisFimmel - which seems designed only as a rather questionable point of contact for his fans.
As does his most faithful supporter @Polijake_Fim
Truth is however... most of the followers of @Travis_F_Tweets have recently disengaged - due to all the weirdness (inappropriate hostility, lack of any basic courtesy, etc.) coming from that account.
And yet... Mr. Fimmel allows it to abide.
Same with the 'Scam Alert Accounts' which serve only a single purpose - which is definitely not eradicating celebrity scam accounts. lolz
For years now I have been reaching out to the friends, coworkers, and rabid followers of the insipid Travis Fimmel - attempting to get someone from his official camp to acknowledge the damaging effect such felonious accounts have on his already damaged fan base. (Which once included me.)
All to no avail.
In fact, instead of outing the obviously fake account @Travis_F_Tweets (which Mr. Breytenbach followed faithfully ever since the two men began filming 'Raised by Wolves' together in South Africa), Garth instead has cried victim - because I tweeted at him.
My half dozen tweets directed at him have actually caused the timid and bashful man to call me a stalker. (poor poor man)
And while these men are all the saddest creatures I've ever had the displeasure of coming across - I do believe their insidious lies and manipulations come at a much higher cost than their pathetic whining and false tears.
That's why I started writing 'Rebel Yell'. The very true story of how it became cool to be cruel. And how lies and manipulations touted as truth have become the cudgel decent folks are beaten to death with.
For the record; throughout this time I have been targeted with harassment (often sexual harassment) by numerous fake accounts all of them attacking me for outing of the false Fimmel accounts and the man's blatant apathy towards them.
I have also during this entire time been struggling with a genetic condition, multiple surgeries, and ongoing serious health issues.
And while I struggled to remain alive, and fed, and housed throughout this outright harassment, Mr. Fimmel has trounced across the world (even during the pandemic), rubbing it in all of our faces that he has zero accountability for the safety of his online fans.
And still he remains silent as the grave, or as dumb as a box of rocks.
In truth, Mr. Fimmel has done absolutely nothing to stop the rampant exploitation of his fans by these attention seeking despots. (They also ask for cash, naughty pics, and meet-ups!)
So, please stay tuned: as this story continues, as I go through yet another uninsured surgery in a desperate attempt to try to restore my health.
Because once healed I plan to hit the ground running.
Until then, peace and love go with you all.
*Using tweets about my rough past by taking them drastically out of context to smear my name and reputation is classic sociopathic behavior. Keep in mind - only one of us is lying and manipulating here. And only one of us is standing up for what's right.
She Dances with Chaos
“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”
She dances with chaos
diamonds in her eyes
she dances like firelight
a half-moon lit
by a thousand unholy sighs
She dances in darkness
a true creature of the night
she draws the dewy dawn
with a fervent delight
She is the tremble
the only reason
She dances like a pixie
a desire you can't contain
she is the madness
eating your brain
She dances with destiny
sparkling fate in her eyes
she is the reason
will most definitely capsize
Oh... just to realize
the magic between her thighs
to get crosswise of that
Oh... heaven would beg
to be so wise
© Raena Exe 2023
*All rights reserved
Letters to the Future No. 1
“You don't know what's happening on the other side of the wall, because you don't want to know.” James Baldwin
THEY came for the mothers first. Pushing them into industry, relegating them to stations THEY deemed worth less... somehow, by some standards I have never quite figured out - except mothers are built differently, with organs made to grow not conquer.
Then THEY told everyone the mothers were too emotional for power and authority, while at the same time THEY filled heads with nothing but stories of slavery, and subjugation, and the inevitable oblivion each mother must face.
Because THEY had wiped the histories of all the mothers and grandmothers who'd ever come before, Histories of contributions no one would ever see.
Only the white men built anything worth having - or so at least THEY repeatedly informed humanity, since as far back as any can recall.
Yet some of humanity does remember. Some know the truth... that it was the birthing rooms, and endless meals, and sickbed nights that really built our future.
THEY took the genocide of mothers and turned it into a funny story and Halloween decorations.
THEY stole every aspect of femininity from THEIR mothers.
And perverted it into only that which would sell the most.
THEY drove human thinking, with every chance THEY had, into its most vile corners, always driving the bulk of humanity towards darker and darker thoughts, and deeds.
No stories of heroism are real anymore, we have to question it all... and everyone... alike.
We have been left bereft of nutrition for mind.
We have been left poisoned in spirit.
Many believe it was a coordinated attack - starting with the diet industry which fed the pharmaceutical industry which fed the medical industry... its false sense of godhood.
It's too perfect to be accidental.
The lines of people suddenly needing insulin tripling - just as the pharmaceutical industry has tripled the cost.
THEY want humanity weak - in mind, body and spirit.
THEY want humanity hurting and starving and desperate for work so that they can cover the basic needs of insurance. Insurance so costly no one can ever actually afford a doctor.
THEY'VE given all the power to industry, turning men into nothing more than cogs in the wheel - each one as replaceable as the next. Just ask any misplaced CEO after a hostile takeover.
No one is safe now.
Except for the few who remain hidden from view.
The ones who marionette the famous and the rich - the ones keeping everyone too sluggish to actually resist.
With a media that lies and a government no one trusts it's just a matter of time now before it all rusts.
The masses have all chosen their camps. The war is all but set.
And so... I pen a reminder to all those who will eventually clean up this ungodly mess.
It all started with the mothers.
© Raena Exe 2023
*All rights reserved
Knight to King's Pawn
She moves like no other
alternating from light to dark
hopping, skipping, jumping over pieces
as if she were some kinda lark
Moving in tandem
between darkness and light
always seeing everything with that
She moves in the open
yet always comes as a surprise
tho she often brings
the instrument of your very demise
She moves with purpose
integrity and pride
and for no one will she ever
For she moves for the children
both born and unborn alike
and only for a purpose
does she strike
Moving with kindness
compassion and love
for a justice
no one can ever dispose of
© Raena Exe 2023
*All rights reserved
Nothing Left - But Violence
He's too old to be cute.
Too scarred to be romantic.
Too mean to be wise, and too dumb to be heartwarming.
All he has left - is the violence he sells - like stale hotdogs sold after the game.
It's blatant - in your face - vengeance turned into immoral rage.
But nobody seems to notice this man's pathetic cage.
So he keeps to the shadows, he keeps to the night.
He does his best to remain out of sight.
Unless it's scripted - smiles and laughter.
This man - who nobody is after.
He sits atop a throne of the dead -
dead poets , dead storytellers who were never seen
for the greedy gleam
in his rapidly yellowing eyes.
This party, then the next - mixing it up - as only a pretend killer can.
This man and his twice-empty hands.
What do you suppose it'll take
for him to finally make a moral stand?
Too old to be cute.
Too dumb to be kind.
This man... who set out to make this world a landmine
for any and all
who follow behind.
What karma does the wholesale of death provoke?
my dude, have you awoke?
The Sound of Little Feet
The sound of little feet drifting through the wind
these are the days we'll always
The noise of laughter, the playful screams
these are the sounds which stitch our lives
with so many wonderful seams
The tussles, the scrapes, the tears
and then the cuddles
this is the way our team learns
the importance of huddles
The anger, the fights, the disillusioned nights
these are the moments we learn to forgive
each other's rights
The love, the light, the devotion through any endeavor
these are the ways our family
These are the ways love
with patience and hope
and the determination
to together make the climb.
“And I learned what is obvious to a child. That life is simply a collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time. That each day should be spent finding beauty in flowers and poetry and talking to animals. That a day spent with dreaming and sunsets and refreshing breezes cannot be bettered.”
Sociopathic predators push your family and friends away by harassing them, making up lies about you, and manipulating them into thinking you're crazy.
They do this because they know a real relationship would get in the way of their main focus (often a high-powered job) so instead, they attempt to create an imaginary relationship - one they can control every aspect of.
Sociopathic Predators - 19 Easy-to-Spot Traits:
1. Lies and manipulation - the sociopathic predator NEEDS to control the narrative at ALL COST and is willing to cross any line to feel like they are in control.
2. Fast Talkers - sociopathic predators talk fast using many many many words - to cover up their shit behavior. Often though their actions refuse to match their words and public image.
3. Fake positive - sociopathic predators just love to give extreme positive feedback, like... "You're Amazing!" even when you both know it really was no big deal. This is a grooming technique, so it's easier for you to look past their complete lack of morals, values, and compassion.
4. Blame is their game - sociopathic predators never say "sorry", and they never take the blame, and whenever they can - SPs are perfectly okay with shaming their victims into taking the blame for them.
("They should have known it was a fake account." "Only stupid people fall for that." - Sound familiar?)
5. They are super judgemental - sociopathic predators love to make derogatory and belittling comments about age, weight, gender, etc. without a single thought. On the flip-side - if you do or say anything against them - the SP will fly off the handle at the drop of a hat.
6. Bounce baby bounce - sociopathic predators (SP for short) will bounce from charm to threats in an instant. There aren't any conversations about uncomfortable things with sociopathic predators. There are people who tiptoe around the SP, and when they do accidentally say something that triggers the SP - they run for cover. There are no heart-to-hearts with an SP.
7. Charm in spades - the sociopathic predator will say anything to anyone so long as it leaves them dominating the situation. Spotting a weakness - the sociopathic predator will use it any way they can - to try to bend you into compliance. Often... once they learn about your deepest fears they use these very things against you.
(Again - this sounding familiar.... to anyone? Anyone at all?)
8. Your gut will warn you about an SP.
9. That's one charming pig! - SPs are also typically sexually deviant - willing to stick it in anything, anywhere, at any time. The crazier the better. Combined with a total lack of guilt, remorse, emotional attachment, or empathy - sociopathic predators tend to hurt people in the most cruel and inhuman ways.
10. Addictive Behavior - It's proven that sociopathic predators are often addicted to sex, drugs, booze, gambling, and many other things... all at once. Can you say "super spreader"?
11. Impulsivity all the way - SPs are often considered 'fun' by those who haven't graduated beyond an 8th grade mentality. Yet it's more than fun with a sociopathic predator - it's also insane and reckless, as SPs have a hard time with any sort of boundaries.
12. Attention is their fuel - sociopathic predators don't like being alone and will often drag their sorry asses out to any function at all - in order to feed of off the attention they've grown to rely on - like fuel. They say it's because they easily get bored - but really it's because they can't stand the sound of their own voice in their head.
13. Liar Liar Pants on Fire - sociopathic predators LIE and they expect you to be just fine with that. In fact, they will get mad at you and blame you if you don't easily digest any ol' stupid lie they throw at you. Regardless of the obviousness of it. That's why people often think sociopathic predators are as dumb as a box of rocks.
14. Self-Sensitive-Babies - sociopathic predators can not handle criticism. It just ain't gonna fly like that. In fact, the very worst thing you can do to a sociopathic predator - is to get other folks to laugh at them. It really drives them fricking crazy. Honestly though, sociopathic predators feel entitled to praise and admiration, and are very quick to anger when someone calls them out on anything.
15. SECRETIVE SHITS - sociopathic predators love power - or the illusion of power when all else fails - therefore, secrets and secret handling often becomes a favorite tool of the SP.
16. Cruelty is no big deal - to the sociopathic predator. In fact... they don't seem to comprehend on an emotional level the damage their actions sometimes have. They could slam your face into a wall, break your nose, and then get mad at you because you're late for dinner.
17. Rationalizing the hurt - sociopathic predators are going to try to excuse the damage they cause, they're gonna try to frame it as - ALL YOUR FAULT. Cuz that's what assholes do.
(Are you seeing it - now???)
18. Irritable assholes - sociopathic predators often get into physical altercations (just like any stunted 8th grader might) - often their bodies are marked by these fights... scars that tell many stories of rage and violence.
19. Deception for personal gain - sociopathic predators are all about the Benjamins. Follow the money - if you ever want to know where a sociopathic predator's heart really lies.
Ways to deal with a sociopathic predator:
1. Remove them from your life.
2. You can't fix them - seriously - get them out of your life ASAP.
3. Don't make ANY agreements or deals with a SOCIOPATHIC PREDATOR - just don't.
Once we ALL can recognize the signs of the morally bankrupt and socially destructive sociopathic predators we can all begin the process of healing.
Until then, and so long as we continue to glorify these con-artists and serial killers - WE will continue to have a FUCKED UP SOCIETY.
*It's time we all start telling the truth.
All the world is a stage, a play between what is and what is perceived. The eternal dance of duality.