I've seen evil, I know it's face ," she whispers to me. 

Though I no longer wish to hear.

"It's in the eyes.  You see it in the eyes."

She is speaking Bulgarian, but I hear her just the same, as if she were whispering my native tongue.

"What is evil?" I ask, shaking my head, because it's not a question I want an answer to, though I'm sure my spirit knows I need to hear it nonetheless.

"What is evil?" she scoffs, and yet her eyes are warm and kind. 

"You are light, you bring happiness and smiles wherever you go.  This is good.  This is right.  You speak the truth, as I always speak the truth about the things I see."

I want to remind her that she's dead. 

But only because I don't feel good.  I feel bitter and angry and sad, most of the time.

"How can I be good when so many terrible things have happened to me?  How can I be good when I have lived such a cursed life?"  I ask with a growl, because my bitterness needs a place to go.

"Why did I suffer so?  It is fate, girl.  And neither you nor I can change our fate.  Not unless we choose the darkness.  Not unless we go against God's wishes."

"But why Baba?  Why does God ask us to suffer so much?"

Baba Vanga shook her head.  She was sad, and her chin shook, as if she would cry.  Yet though the young woman's chin quivered her eyes were liquid puddles of love.

"Through us God helps people to see.  People are lost in the darkness so we must bring the light to them."

"And they hate us for it.  They shun us for it.  They murder us for it."

Baba Vanga nodded her head.  "This they do, child.  This they continue to do."

"I can't do it anymore, Baba.  I don't have the strength.

"Hold on, child," she told me.  "Hold on.  Fate is not finished with you yet."


X
07/23/2023

© Raena Exe 2024

He is the white wolf
the dark tide
the daimon you always want
by your side

He is the lone
master
the pirate pastor
the elegant disaster

Born of the wild
ever beguiled
defiled and exiled
the devil's stepchild

who doesn't know what it means
to be mild

But oh... when he smiles
His enemies
run for miles
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste

sans everything

But that tumultuous sting
that divine ring
that effervescent
spring

Here now, the white wolf
sings


X
01/25/2024



“Veni, Vidi, Vici"

© Raena Exe 2024

The fulcrum is upon us
nothing again will be the same
the calendar
changed

The world stopped
the old ship hopped
destiny
finally swapped

fate finally topped

We open the wound
to end the rot
the pointless plot
the coagulated clot
lies
have
bought

And this blade of time
as sweet as any
divine rhyme
is finally mine

I hope you don't mind
as We call forth
the summertime
sublime
that dinnertime chime

that pantomime of
crime

swinging my blade
of time

setting us all
upon a
holy hallelujah
paradigm




X
01/24/2024




Integrity - Transparency - Honesty

*the new currency

© Raena Exe 2024

Little boy blue has lost his sheep
the cows are in the corn
and he's off to sleep
all tuckered out
from porn

Gay-for-pay
he barks and neighs
he even does a bit of ballet
in the hopes
someone will throw a bit of cash
his way
 
Little Boy Blue
sells himself
down by the seashore
where he begs and implores
any old bag bones
cuz little blue boy
sells more
than just some seedy old groans

Little Boy Blue will happily lick
any old set of stones

Little Boy Blue
our eager beaver
always looking for some wood
to chuck
for that quick and easy
buck

or even...
a wee bit of luck

poor-poor monkey
just begging
for a fuck

be they rich or poor
old or mean
man or woman
he will happily suck that thing
for a bit of cash

or a temporary
place to crash

just don't mind
his ever-pervasive rash

Little Boy Blue
come blow your horn
your pockets are growing thin
so hold up your chin
and pull back that old wrinkled
foreskin

it's time to dive in
once again




X
07/29/2023

© Raena Exe 2024

 
All I have to offer is my silence, my witness, my non-participation in this life, in this dance, waiting on a chance, to breathe, to dream, to take a bold and audacious theme, out into this world, hurled, spiraling into infinity, where someone will ask my name, my shame, can't hide what's on my face, can't hide the disgrace you've given me, for all the world to see, it's captivated me, cannibalized the parts you see, I stand against a wall, with nothing to offer but my silence, my witness, my non-participation in this life, this dance, with no hope of romance, I'm slipping away, a ghost that can no longer stay, you've stripped away the best parts and left only the scars that are choking me, I can't breathe, can't dream, can't make a bold and audacious theme, to save my life, this empty race is just a face to show the world, where I've been hurled, yet they rather I disappear, was never here.  And all I can give is my will to live, as it crumbles on the floor, can't take any more, can't smooth it out, get the wrinkles out, there is do doubt what lies beneath is my funeral sheath, for beauty was my only crime, but you desired that which was mine, wanted, needed, I was destined to be devoured, the whole world soured, taking, corrupting, bleeding beauty can be so... disrupting, and then it's gone, and while you yawn, I'm left to seep, to weep, in a heap, now I'm running for the door, can't take any more, the silence bursting my seems, I have to murder my impossible dreams, for they'll never forgive me your awful crime, this prison of yours... will forever be mine.
 
 
 
 
X
09-27-2013

© Raena Exe 2024

She breathes fire
that cat burglar of desire
that mystical seamstress
sowing up some morning dew
turning dragons into goddamn gurus

twistin men up
with Her wicked lil kazoo
that mystical kung fu
voodoo

packin the punch
they'll all deliver
maken em shiver
over that tiny sliver
that quake, that reason
y'all stay wide awake

till mornin' come
just ta watch it all undone
with a flick of Her wrist
that God awful twist
ya never saw headin yer way
Oy Vey!

Touché

This bitch is here to stay.


X

01/06/2023

© Raena Exe 2024