You have been so angry, feeling like God abandoned you.
So angry it became a festering wound. A wound that kept playing out, over and over again, as other people abandoned you too. Even those who were supposed to love you, no matter what. They abandoned you too.
Even though you were just an innocent child.
You have been so very angry - you started sabotaging yourself so that others would abandoned you as well.
Who would love you?
Who could love you?
Sadly, this is the only way God can learn to love himself.
By each of us, learning to love ourselves - no matter what we do. No matter what others do.
Because God resides in each of us.
All of us.
At the same time.
His love is our love. Our love is his love. It's always been one and the same.
And this wound - the only wound you've ever really had - is THE perennial wound of a God trying to love and understand itself.
This must happen - in order to reunite all of the fractal pieces of God's infinite soul.
Every errant thought - trying to be resolved.
Every negative thought, choice, and action - needing to be understood - for they are part of God too.
How can you prove God loves you - when you yourself are God?
That's why you are here.
This is your task.
It's why you came.
No one abandoned you, who's soul didn't understand the mission you are on.
Because they are God too.
God - the ultimate split-personality disorder.
And the only way is to chose to love yourself enough to chose a path home.
Don't stay stuck in the matrix of being tossed about by fragments of other people's thoughts.
The ultimate show of self love - is standing up and admitting... I AM.
When we abandon ourselves it feels as though God abandons us too.
Cuz all there is - is God.
We can never be separate from God.
We can only refuse to accept the truth.
We can refuse to act.
Know that YOU are God.
YOU are the love and redemption you seek.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
© Raena Exe 2024